Ch. 3 - The Spring Season

The next morning felt different having butterflies in the stomach. Both of us have been very expressive in nature. Amongst the many common things, the first thing we did is calling our best friends and sharing about our new beginning. Our friends did know about us and all of them had a similar expression…“FINALLY!”

We knew each other's friends but didn’t really introduce or involve each other much since we were not sure where we were heading too. Finally we started hanging out together in our groups. It was an overwhelming feeling.

The relationship started evolving and we were enjoying this phase of random meet up plans, long bike rides, chill scenes with our friends. In fact both of us have a really close friend circle. She blended very smoothly with my group of friends. Another thing that we have in common in valuing our personal relationships with respective friends. That is one of the most respectable things we have had since the beginning for each other.

The birthdays became even special and there were various occasions of random surprises. It was like all these years, we had kept some things in mind to share the special moments only with the one we love and finally we were living it. I think that’s one of the reasons we started feeling it a happy place.

Both of us always preferred to keep our relationship a low key and especially away from social media. It was a conscious choice, that is how we liked to be. Hence a very few of our closed ones only knew about our relationship. It was a crazy time and we were enjoying this phase without discussing a lot about the future. We thought to take it step by step and let the time decide where it is taking us.

Well while all was going good, something else started cooking in my mind. I don't know why, but with time I happened to become an extreme overthinker. I started getting influenced by the opinions of some of the people that I looked up to. I started getting scared with a perspective that got built in my mind.

I started feeling this is not going to work out due to various reasons and in my mind the thoughts started getting firm, very firm. It was the most confusing frame of mind I got into in a couple of months. It got so much into my mind that I had become a different person than who I really am. I became A BIG OVERTHINKER!

One random day at the start of 2019, I said to her, I don’t think this is working out. I feel Let’s Break up!

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